We run back to each other when it’s convenient. We know that in the end, we’re meant for each other, but not for right now. So we play these games, act like we’re okay when one of us has someone else. When in reality, it tears us apart to know that we can be happy with someone else. But it’s that slight hope that we will end up together that always keeps us running back for more.
It still hurts at three a.m.
Maybe we’re not meant to be.
There was a time I was convinced you were my soulmate. The connection we had was unbelievable. We even talked about our future tgt and everything actually seemed within reach. Who would’ve thought we would end up like this? I was angry with you for so many months for ruining what we had and blaming you for everything but right now I just feel so empty.
Last night all I could think about was the first time we said those 3 words to each other. I still remember everything so clearly. I remember wanting to say it to you but being so shy about it and I said “3 words, 8 letters, say it and I’m yours” corny as fuck but it made you laugh and you did say it and at that moment I was so so happy.
Time really flies huh, next month would’ve been our second year tgt. If two people are meant to be tgt they will always find their way back to each other right? You have no idea how many times I was so tempted to ask Eli how are you doing but I held myself back cause I knew she would’ve told you. I know you don’t visit my tumblr anymore but I really do want you to be happy. You’re falling for him aren’t you? And I guess I just have to be okay with that.
You’re the one I couldn’t forget even at the last breath I take. You’re the one my heart longs for because I found real joy in you.